The Blue Flame

The Blue Flame

Laying alone in my bed

My past has become a blur
My future is still unknown

Memories are becoming fantasies

Fantasies are dying as they pass

I see myself burning in the bitter cold

A blue flame enveloping my body

Heat and cold in an unnatural blending

Yet the pain does not cause me discomfort

Instead a pleasant feeling encircles me

I do not understand what the flames are

I don't know who to thank

I will never know who to blame

I awake in the glow of the morning sun

All of my memories are gone

Shoved into a dark corner of my mind

Lost to decades of time

The flames shield me from a painful past

Hiding me from my lost loves

From the mistakes I made as a youth

They hide the things I may have said in haste

From the hatred I showed my fellow man

The flames burn as my protection

Protecting me from me

Allowing me to look to an unknown future

Without the painful images of my past