Judgment

Judgment

I have not feared much

Why then does my blood run cold

The time had to come

When I would be judged

I do not want to walk those steps

Admit my sins as I climb

All the time fearing that I would fall

I have to go

One step at a time

Higher with my thoughts

My confessions and my lies

My dreams and my nightmares

I do not wish to speak to the man at the top

The one who will tell me how bad I have been

Where I will spend eternity

But, I must

It may not do any good

I must speak and defend myself

I must allow myself to be judged

Whether pleasure of terror

I must allow myself to be sentenced

To an eternity I have no say in

Walking My Own Road

Walking My Own Road

I know this road

I have walked it for so many years

To get to where I am now

It is a shorter journey before me

And such a long distance behind

Still, I would travel that road

Walk all of the way back

To my beginning

Start my life all over again

Take the time to learn more

Talk to more people

Maybe say “I love you” a few moments sooner

Maybe make it last a little bit longer

I wish I could change my road

Turn at the first intersection

But this is my road

I created it as I lived

Now, I cannot go back

My soul will not permit it

So, I walk the road

I don’t wish to but I have no choice

Step by step I must proceed

Knowing the end is coming closer

Life In A Freckle

Life In A Freckle

Who do we think we are

The only planet

In the only solar system

In the only galaxy

Such a massive reality

But, maybe that isn’t true

Maybe we live on an electron

Orbiting  a nucleus

With eight other electrons

(Yes, I counted Pluto)

In a molecule

Inside of a freckle

On the face of a little girl

Living on her own electron

Orbiting its own nucleus

With three other electrons

Inside of a molecule

In another girl’s freckle

And on and on in an endless line

Learn From The Little Children

Learn From The Little Children

I love watching little children

Their playful innocence

The way they can turn a box

Magically into anything they want

Am empty bowl into a chocolate sundae

And a hug into something really special

They can see the universe in a snowflake

And a snowflake in a distant star

Even when a day is going really wrong

The smile a child gives makes everything right

There is something unique in children

It doesn't matter what color you are

What god you follow

Or what you look like

To a child who has not learned to hate

You are a friend to play with

And talk to

Maybe, if we leave children alone

And not warp their minds

Someday we may all be friends to play with

And wouldn't that be nice

The Fire Of Fall

The Fire Of Fall

After months of heat

Burning sun

Creating a deep green canopy

The Northern Winds come

Cooling the air

Chasing the Sun below the Equator

The green fades as the light dies

Bright reds, oranges and yellows

Gives us a new beauty

It will not last long

It is such a short time until there is no color

And the whiteness of snow

Covers the land

But, it also only lasts a short time

And the cycles begins again

The Email Novel

The Email Novel

I have written her an email

Said hello

Told her I missed her

And that I loved her

Then I said goodbye

I waited for an answer

When I got it

It was amazing

Lines one through thirty two

Told me about what she ate for dinner

Lines thirty three through thirty nine

Talked about her fingernails

Forty through fifty six

Told me about a picture she saw on Twitter

Lines fifty seven through sixty

Gossiped about a woman on the Bachelor

Sixty one through ninety

I heard about the dress she was wearing to her reunion

And lastly ninety one through one hundred eighteen

Was about her stubbing her toe on the dresser

There was never a hello

Never an I miss you

Or even I love you

Maybe, just maybe

If I send HER a book next time

I will get an email that I can read in less than two hours

At least I hope so

I Ain’t Going

I Ain’t Going

I can hear you screaming

Sitting outside my window

It is driving me insane

Endless and piercing

Are you Samael or Lucifer

It doesn’t matter

I know what you want

I know why you are here

But, I am not ready

There is too much left to do

You could take me to Heaven

You can take me to Hell

I don’t care

So, just fly away and take someone else

Because I ain’t going anywhere with you

But, if you are just a bird

Just get the hell out of here

And let me sleep

Amber

Amber

Millions of years ago

A tree stood in the tropical heat

Then something happened

A wound opened

It just cut through the bark

Still the tree bled

A thick golden syrup

Swallowing all it touches

Until it reaches the grass below

The tree died so long ago

The syrup stayed on

Through heat and cold

Flood and drought

And it became a gemstone

Admired and loved

A treasure with a piece of ancient life

Something more valuable than gold

And it all came from a tree

Reopen The Bases

Reopen The Bases

The U.S. Government hires so many

Dresses them in uniforms

And send them out to fight wars

They fight and some die

Others come home crippled

Unable to work or find a home

So, they live on the streets

While thousands of homes sit empty

Government homes the president ordered closed

Someone, somewhere has to ask why

Why are the closed bases not given to the people

Given to the soldiers who asked for nothing

They served for the love of a country

A country who turned their back

When they stepped off of the plane

Take the time to thank them

Give them somewhere to live

Somewhere to be a person again

Instead of the unwanted that you made them

After all, they served you

Now is your turn to serve them

Reopen the bases and give them a home

Give them their lives back

Let Us Talk

Let Us Talk

Hey, old black fellah

I see history in your eyes

Fifty thousand years of your people

May I sit down next to you

I wish to hear your stories

Tell me of the Lost Generation

The bigotry your people have faced

The massacres when the Europeans first came

The final acceptance of your people

Into the newly formed Australia

Tell me of your myths and legends

Tell me of your Dreamtime

I want to know more about you

I want to know your people

Please allow me to sit with you

Let us talk

Help me to understand

The proud Aboriginal people

Pain Of The Waves

Pain Of The Waves

Why can’t they see

My mind torn by thoughts

By dreams

And by nightmares

No man could imagine

Thoughts that no man should have

Wave after wave

Created by a storm on the horizon

They crash on the beach

Tearing it to shreds

As my mind struggles to make sense

Of what there is no sense to

I go from the light of happiness

With unicorns and angels

To the pits of darkness

A place of demons and pain

Within the single beat of a heart

My eyes tear as another wave crashes

As I know of the pain it brings

I claw my flesh to make the thoughts leave

But, I know that until the seas calm

The distant storms fade away

And the waves return to the horizon

I will not know peace

Lost Children Of War

Lost Children Of War

Children are the innocents

Their only crime is living

They should be playing in the yard

Hide and seek and tag

Looking at butterflies as they fly by

Instead, they have to hide in basements

Watching their mothers and fathers die

Seeing blood covering the streets

They hear the bombs dropping

Until the last one drops

Then a lonely child is finally with other children

Was it Russian, American, Syrian or from ISIS

It doesn’t matter

The children are still punished for their crime

A crime they no longer can commit

They lay on a concrete floor

Waiting to be buried

To make room for more innocent children

Who died for a war no one understands

God’s Golden Eye

God’s Golden Eye

When I was a child

Every night I knelt beside my bed

Clasped my hands in front of my face

Closed my eyes

And bowed my head

And I asked God to bless my family

That was so many years ago

Before I became an adult

And prayers were just a waste of time

My life was going just as I had it planned

Money and fame came easily

And so did the cancer, which grew in my chest

Only then I remembered what my mother told me

“God is always watching even if you forget Him”

So, I climbed the highest mountain I could find

I dropped down onto my knees

Clasped my hands before me

Closed my eyes

And, for the first time in 30 years I prayed.

I didn’t pray for Him to save my life

I asked Him to watch after the woman I loved

And the children I would never see again

When I raised my head and opened my eyes

I looked up toward Heaven to see if God had heard me

Across the valley

Between the peaks of other mountains

I saw God’s golden eye looking down at me

And at that moment I just knew

My prayers would be answered

And everything would be just fine

Hurricane

Hurricane

I know you are there

You puny humans

You actually think you can hide

You can stay within my fury

Don’t you know I control the winds

I control the rains and the lightning

I control the oceans and the waves

You are allowed to stay on my shores

Live in beautiful homes on the land

But I can wipe them away any time I want

And there is not a damn thing you can do

I will pass when I am finished with you

And you will feel safe

You will take your lives back

And you will be happy

Until I return with another name

Again, you will know I am coming

You will not heed the advice to leave

And again, I will destroy your lives

I may let you live this time

Then again, I may not

That is all up to me

So, don’t gamble

Don’t take the chance that I will show mercy

Don’t you forget that your ass is mine

And I don’t really care about you

The Business Man

The Business Man

He works 60 plus hours a week

Eating lunch at his desk

Staring at only his computer screen

He even gives up his sleep

His wife never sees him

He loses his children for his job

5 days a week

50 weeks a year

He has no life of his own

On his few days off he leaves

Taking his family away from his job

They play and get to know each other

Still, he takes a moment for himself

To listen to a voice he has ignored

He walks into a temple in a forest

Birds and a waterfall are the only sounds

And he kneels before God

And he thanks Him for his life

And his loves

And everything he is

And somewhere God smiles

Searching For A Sprite

Searching For A Sprite

I have searched for you for so long

In the winter

When the tree’s branches were bare

In the spring

When new life came into the world

In the summer

When the green canopies covered the skies

And in the autumn

When the leaves turned to reddish fire

I have searched for a Forest Sprite

Whom no one has ever seen

I wish to ask for her a single blessing

Ask her if I could have an everlasting love

And the happiness which comes with it

If I could ask that of a winsome Sprite

I would have lived my life with hope

And that may just be enough for me

The Magical Land

The Magical Land

I dream of mystical lands

High in the ancient trees

Hidden deep in the rainforests

A land where grasses grow uncut

Where birds of only the brightest colors

Sing the melodies for only heavens to hear

Where nymphs, fairies and sprites live

Dancing in the light of the setting sun

To a song that only they can hear

Magic dust covers the leaves

Shining like a far away galaxy

Such a special place to see

Still, man has no idea such a place exists

So, for the moment it is safe

And magic still exists in the world

At least for now

Hangover

Hangover

What did I do last night

I remember going out

Meeting a girl

We emptied a bottle of Jack

And she looked a whole lot better

I got her naked

She got me naked

And I don’t remember the rest

I know I woke up alone

My pillow soaked with drool

And the curtains pulled tight

I do have one thing to help me remember

My eyes are watering

My mouth is dry as a desert

And my head is pounding like a drummer

I usually love my life so much

The girls and the music

The lights and dancing

And I love my shots of Jack

If only the morning wouldn’t come

The sun would not come up

And the hangover would stay away

Everything would be perfect

Escape

Escape

I want to escape

Just run away from the world

Climb to the top of a mountain

Drop down into a valley

Swim across a raging river

Step upon the distant shore

I want me to be left behind

Forgotten by me and everyone

I do not want to exist any longer

I want to become someone I am not

I just want to be the me I want to be

In a place far away from the past

I just want to be me

The Girl He Loves

The Girl He Loves

Even though he has a car

He walks to work

Again to go home

And sometimes for no reason

He always walks the same street

Past the same brownstone

The building is not that pretty

It is not important at all

But there is one thing he has to see

The love of his life

With her bright red hair

And skin, which is as perfect as perfect can be

She sits in a second floor window

Watching as life passes her by

Still, he has seen her lips

Has looked into her eyes

And he has often seen her smile

He does not know her name

Nor will he ever

Still, she has a place in his heart

And he will always love the girl in the window

The girl he will never know

The Raintree

The Raintree

There is a tree

A tree planted when the world was new

Kept away from anything

It must never be harmed

Its brilliant green leaves

Bloom under a tropical sun

Birds fly through the branches

Singing songs even brighter than the day

Yet, all is not happy within the tree

The Raintree was created for just one reason

When the angels look down at us

They see the suffering of everything

And they cry in Heaven

Their eyes begin to water

And their tears fall to Earth

Only to be caught by the leaves

And dropped into the River of Sorrows

Where they are lost forever

And all life is once again protected

From having more sadness than it could handle

The Light Of The New Moon

The Light Of The New Moon

The full moon rises

Casting its amber light

Changing the sea from blue

Into a field of glistening diamonds

That moon has powers

We do not understand

Inspiring poets to write

Singers to sing their melodic tones

And lovers to share their first kiss

Sadly, the light only lasted for a brief moment

Then, it turns into cold gray

Casting the darkest shadows of the night

However, we always know

In thirty trips around this planet

That amber light will return

The poets will write again

The singers will sing again

And the lovers will fall in love again

Even if just for another moment

The light of the full moon will make us happy

Even if just for a moment

When I Die

When I Die

The day I die

When I pass from this Earth

I will lay peacefully

And close my eyes

As my last breath leaves my body

I will join with an angel

And allows my troubles to be gone

Left in the empty shell that was my body

I will walk down a tunnel of flowers

In the fresh air and the scent of beauty

My soul will find peace in every step

And I will live again

In a paradise of my own creation